of boys & girls..


What happens when boys like girls or vice versa? They fall in love right? Only if its that SIMPLE. But heck, life's always COMPLICATED. Been wanting to share this for quite a while, but as usual, I obviously need motivators/reasons (good ones) to start. Just that recently, there's just lots of speculating relationships (inclusive of break-ups) and yada yada. You might wonder what is it to me, well, I can HONESTLY tell you that Im just NOT being nosy, just SHARING!

Was on the phone earlier with Gracie, talking about boy, girl relationship, mostly. Very random and sudden. Haha. But what I'm sharing here are of those complicated relationship. Em, well, not in a relationship to begin with. Well, this is my point of view, so keep your own opinions to yourself, alright? No names shall be mentioned in order to protect the privacy of various individuals. Sounded like a love guru? Nah! Im still learning even in my very own one.

Scenario #1.
Boy A in a few years relationship with this girl. However, he started getting intimate (a lil bit of flirting perhaps?) with a friend, Girl A, of his. And somehow, his mixed signals has been driving Girl A a lil confuse about the situation. After all, he's attached, isnt he? So, why is he doing such things? Besides, Girl A has a bad history of liking a guy previously who's ALSO in a relationship. And best of all, Boy A knows about her history but subconsciously inflicting this to Girl A over again? Being the confidante of Girl A, it was a hell of a time for her to get over of the previous 'so-called' relationship, so obviously, does not want to see karma repeating itself! Girl A does not see it is necessary to open up to Boy A of his doings to her in such manner but just going with the flow which is just messing up with her head of why is this happening?!

Scenario #2
Girl B likes, or maybe had a crush on Boy B who's a dancer. A famous one among his peers especially. Given his looks and all (according to Girl B), it is to die for; given the talent in dancing and a more average looking type of guy to me as compared that Girl B is mad over heels for Boy B. The issue is that Boy B is aware of her crush towards him, but at the same time going with the flow. Girl B will constantly be Facebook-ing on his profile, checking messages posted on his profile from his various fans (girls mostly) going ga-ga over him and to an extent that SOME are in such delusional state that he's the boyfriend! Well, this is what you get when you're famous? All sorts of people will want to own you in such way, praying and hoping or maybe even ASSUMING you're already his/hers! Girl B is partly in denial as subconciously thinking that he's the boyfriend even though she isnt those obsessive type as in normal daily life, she's perfectly clear that they're not together but mainly just friends, however, at the same time harbouring her feelings towards him. In short, she finds that their friends but actions speaks louder than words as it says otherwise of that a girlfriend should be doing for a boyfriend. Constant sms-ing and calls every other day to Boy B leaves me thinking that she's probably doing too much. And in such way, she may not be seeing results out of it, if this prolongs BUT she's happy in doing so. As a good friend, at times, I just kept to myself, knowing for a fact that she's pining for interactions of Boy B in which she knows, well, perfectly clear of what she's up to.

Scenario #3
Girl C is happily in her current relationship. At the same time, she's aware of the love of from Boy C. Yet, she treated Boy C AS IF she's a true boyfriend, at times asking him to run errands for her and stuffs. SADLY, Boy C is WILLING to be bossed around by her in return of his love for her. BUT in turn both Boy C and Girl C are aware of the 'actual' situation where she loves her boyfriend but at the same time, is willing to accept the attention, love and care from Boy C. From the account of Boy C, he knows that its a foolish act to be around for her whenever she needed him but can't help feeling that way for her as Boy C has never love someone so deeply, compared to his previous ex-es. Also, it was also undeniable that Boy C is willing to wait for Girl C's in return for her love and such, in which for the period of time, it might not be happening at all. So, where's the point of this? Short to say, Boy C is happy even it is not how it should be.

The irony of the three scenarios are that although no confirmation of relationships, but yet they're happy in their own ways.

At the same time, there are also couples who has been together for years (3-5), but it ended! Yes, sad I know. But every other relationship has their own storyline behind those breakings and outsiders does not have the right to be judgemental or even understand! If its meant to be, then it is; if its not, so be it! Quote from a friend, "It's better to be with no one than to be with the wrong one!'. SO TRUE. Obviously, these individuals has made their own desicions and I do wish them happiness. My blessings goes to them. =)


Its easy just to fall in love but proves to be more than that when you're in one. Going through obstacles of ups and downs in the relationship and obviously making the best out of it. Let's just say, it's definitely challenging to maintain one and to truly love someone who you see a future in. Shouldn't it be in happy endings where couple exchange vows, starting a family and to grow old with together? Eventually, it's just all or nothing right? But I still believe its all up to individuals whether or not they're putting in effort to really make the best out of their relationship and the saying goes, it will definitely pays off in the ends!

Cheers!

p/s: All above are not of fictional characters but are true in many ways! Forgive me if I MAY have exaggerated the stories conveyed through BUT its all based solely on my POINT OF VIEW and you may disagree with what I might have added in.

months ago..

Notice the difference? Hmm.. Temporary layout for the time being. Instead of the usual 3 columns, its now 2 columns instead. Nevermind then. I shall try to get myself usedto it to this TEMPORARILY as its still way beyond comparison to the previous one. The header's font is too boring, so perhaps I'm going to fix that once I got hold of the idea of creating a web page! Need help. Desperate to customize it. Seriously! You know who you are!

Since the layout's done, Im gonna start blogging bout the past two months events? Hmm.. *thinks* There's quite a number of events I guessed? But it wont be in individual posts, just summarizing it in lists form perhaps? Of course with dates I hope? Quite tasking, but I'll keep to my promise obviously!

Can't remember when's what so here goes:

  • 2009 ended with Gracie and her sister over at Singapore Flyer with spectacular fireworks right from the capsule, overlooking Marina Bay (think so!) for the exact 10 minutes at the peak (nearly!) and it was AWESOME! Sadly, the recording of the fireworks died at the last minute of the finale and I MISSED THAT PART! =S Somehow, its always imperfect for me in life for nearly everything! Oh well~
  • Stayed the entire night till the very morning of New Year's with the girls after work at CQ. It was such good times. I missed that. Although it has been nearly a year now that I left, many things has changed and I really reminisce those good old days. HOW I WISHED things doesnt change. After all, it will NEVER be the same anymore although the thoughts of returning is tempting. Sadly, certain Goodbyes are permanent!
  • How about Christmas? Hmm.. I shall skip that part. Sorry.
For twenty-ten,
  • Finally completed my course of studies. Undecided. Unemployed. BUT to take a short break till the time's right to finally step into the working world? God! I feel old and so adult now. Sigh.
  • Somehow, I feel that it's back to basic again! This time last year, I left for home and it was not until May of 2009 where Im close to love again. With the long distance and all, it was just so difficult for the both of us. Im not too sure whether I'll have the courage to go through this all over again. It just pains the both of us! But I know we shall managed like those times, right.
  • Had Ayam Penyet for dinner after the last paper! It was awesome. Shall bring love there sometimes!
  • Had the best four days! Right after the 15th, though it was just simple dinners, movie and monopoly deal, but I was happy enough just to be waking up to you every other morning and to end my day with you by my side. How I wished that those happy times didn't have to end so quickly but as they say, 'happy times passes by quickly'. =(
  • Leaving again on the 10th Feb and not knowing how long does this 'short' break will ever take. Meanwhile, my life has always been a rollercoaster road, still ongoing, not knowing when it'll ever stop. Im just looking forward to those days where sweetie's coming over to visit even just for a few days. It'll always be a heartbreaking moment when we have to say our goodbyes. Why does it have to be this way? Sigh. I just wish there's always another option but it will always be the least favourable options that I had to make choice of .You will visit, right? *hopeful*
Even with happy moments, there's always sad and unavoidable times where we do have our own arguments. I mean which couple doesn't right? Regardless, its the outcomes that matters and I believe this has brought us closer at times but with the recent situation, it's all so familiar to me again. Im not complaining, but just hoping of having more communication between us. Proper conversation. Hard isnt it with all the busy schedule? Hmm.. Nevertheless, the love fool's always hopeful. Sometimes, I do doubt myself whether am I doing more harm than good? I missed those old time when we just started; how you were always being so attentive and caring, of all those sweet nothings. Yet, I do understand the responsibilities that comes right when work has taken over. Everything's so short and simple nowadays. Perhaps it all boils down to the repeating of familiarity, isnt it?

Guess it got out of hands while writing as it ends with such an emo passage! =S But that's all for now?

p/s: Second Agnes B condom from Michelle! =)

CONGRATULATIONS & CELEBRATIONS =)


Congrats to Mama Ellie!!

A very good friend of mine just enter motherhood with her bundle of joy on the 23rd of January!
Im just so happy and thrilled for her in welcoming the sweet, cute little girl of here.
Hello baby Joelle.
=)


my first for twenty-ten

In case you didn't noticed, the template of my blog went "POOF!".
Sigh. Not AGAIN!! If Im not mistaken, the link's already broken, and trying my best to source for yet another layout all over again!
Not easy anyway to get a suitable layout that I totally dig it in for. And now I really missed the previous one. Nothing beats that! It's the most awesome layout that I've ever had and hope to see it still working after it has been rectified. Oh by the way, it's from Blogger Buster. Amanda is truly an amazing and creative in designing all the templates! =) Thanks!

Before the layout thingy is resolved, I shall not be blogging for a while now till I've fixed it!
So, you've gotta wait a while more then.
Stay tune!

what shall it be?

Another update (perhaps last) for this year.

Is it me or is it just like every other year?
Everyone's either, blogging, tweeting, FB-ing about the few more days left to 2010. Hmm. Perhaps its just only me. Im the only one not feeling the mood about New Year but it has been like this every year. Nothing to look forward to and DEFINITELY nothing to celebrate about (exception:2000). So yeah, Im just different! =)

Pretty much this holiday season is a bit mundane. With assignments and finals, I still just cant let myself to enjoy. Not just YET! Soon. Mark my words.

Dont believe in making any resolutions cause its not going to be fulfill nor motivate me to achieve. I live by the days with plannings of course.

So, let's see. What shall this blogpost's talk about?

  • Recently watched Sherlock Holmes! I must say its pretty awesome of a work by Guy Ritchie but not as exciting as it should have been in the series. Well, it's entirely different and DEFINITELY not based by the books anyway, but still pretty interesting.
  • Watched Avatar too despite that the trailer gave me a bad impression not to watch it. No offence, but Im just not that type who watched sci-fi and of all, human-alike species are blue. Reminds me of Mystique from X-Men though. Nevertheless, still a good movie but pretty much overrated by those who had watched claiming it to be the 'it' movie of 2009. But wait, isnt it 2012? Well, go figure?
  • Hmm. What else?
  • Pretty much nothing fun and exciting that I've done lately. Just spending time with Mr. Assignments and the beloved White Apple.
  • Oh yeah, there is another. Got myself stucked in the middle of Orchard with no knowledge what-so-ever that the 'human' traffic is THAT BAD on Christmas Eve. I vouched NEVER ever to be out on that very day EVER! Why I was there you ask in the first place? Was on my way to the nearest bus stop after dinner and BAM! It was out of nowhere and I definitely see no reason to be stucked there! Sigh.

Em, I guess that sums up everything. Will update in the next post if I left out any. =)

Happy New Year people*

i cant wait!

CHRISTMAS SHOPPING!

With the constraint budget and all, it wont stop me from getting gifts. Afterall, its the season of giving where everything is magical. Its CHRISTMAS for Christ's sake! Time for a lil celebration. =) Don't you agree?

Okay, back to Christmas shopping. Don't have a long list but only two! T.W.O with hell lots of cracking heads just to figure out what to get for one another.

  1. First up is the boyfriend. Though he knows what he'll be getting but I wasnt satisfied with the actual gift. It's just not right somehow, like something's missing to make it even more special but what it is? Hmm.. Last year it was just my luck to get him Grand Manier and let's just say I don't repear gifts or at least something similar?
  2. Who else other than this lovely bestie of mine right? Its that TIME of the YEAR again where we go gaga over Christmas-like stuffs (our favourite: Starbucks) that would make a perfect gift for one another. We would then discuss among ourselves for what seems like ages trying to get the right one. Just this year, both of us doesnt find anything likeable from Starbucks merchandise. Pretty sad. We went over details and stuffs and it was just so difficult this year! Damn. Fret not, hopefully I'll be able to get what she wants.
Happy Christmas shopping ya. =)
p/s: last minute shopping for me!

nothing much about..

*announce* I OFFICIALLY HATE DECEMBER!

Okay. Except the beginning of the month where my spirits are entirely lifted due to Christmas. But then reality hits and everything starts to SINK. REAL DEEP.

Sigh. I know its always such a boring starting line everytime I post for the recent posts. Yes yes, this post wont be all that sappy and stuffs! ABSOLUTELY NOT!!
  • Went home sweet home during the weekends. Most porbably I would try to make it back home every two weeks now. It feels AWESOME to be home with Mum & Dad and my annonying brother but it's all good. It never feels better than to own a home and just do nothing; lazing on the couch, read a book, Mum cooked and everything is well-taken care of and I do mean EVERYTHING. Total bliss. =) Speaking of which, IM MISSING HOME ALREADY!
  • Had an awesome stay-over at Gracie's. Pretty much a disaster with the car problem thingy and the deprivation of our beauty sleep (practically looked like a zombie) but it was a well night spent with one another. Had lots of crap as usual, you know us girls, till the sun comes up. Haha. We woke up pretty early and managed to have breakfast. That was practically about it. She was too caught up with her assigment and without her it's TOTAL BORING to do anything else, so instead I stayed home which is good.
  • Deadline for one of the assignments was extended till January's 14 2010! At least not much of a rush but there's FYP and perhaps a Christmas dinner since Mum & probably Gracie coming over too.
  • Holiday plans - So far confirmed on Chengdu, China (13th April 2010), still in consideration includes Taiwan in May 2010, and perhaps Bangkok too (January 2010)?

Well, that's all for now ya. NOT going into much details on the ongoing FYP! God bless that I'll be able to finish it by this weekend! MUST MUST MUST! =)

little thoughts

Ever again, the little thoughts in my head speaks more than my actual speech. Really frustrating. Just when Im about to shut my eyes, 'it' would creep out and start pestering me to think about stuffs that happened lately in which I decide to shut them up in reality. Rather than to face them and let them take its own course, they just wont go away.

Eveytime when the urge to blog is there, it always present itself at a VERY wrong timing. After a while, I end up not blogging (more to ranting or maybe sharing) and keeping those thoughts to myself. Sigh. Frustating isnt it?

Slowly in time, it all tend to pile up with none of it solved. Well, it is not something which I can resolve it at once but how I wish. Hmm. Guess Im already all grown up by now. Watched Twilight for the umpteenth time now but it always makes me feel indifferent and lots to think about. Remember that I mentioned before that I've had this quite unusual syptom of mine? Well, it just did. Just cant wait to watch New Moon despite having to read all four already. It just seem more lively to watch than to actually picture it in your mind as one reads on but I still do and very much enjoy reading.

A few more weeks to go and hello 2010. Hmm. Yet another year. Really do hope that whatever than Im going through in present to be on a smooth sail. I wish I could stay tough and strong as I used to be but I end up hurting more, becoming even more fragile. Things cant always go the way I want it to be but yet I believe with the willpower, I can and will achieve it. Yes, and that's life.

Its such a random post than I no longer find it necessary to connect whatever the content is. Those who read this might not get me but it's okay. Im just glad that you do bother to read part of me here. Let's just say, Im not trying to keep it from you but its just my way of telling it or simply just the way Im behaving lately. DO try to understand and assure me that I will always have your company which definitely means a lot to me. Confidence is something that I've lost lately. Therefore, it takes time.

On a happy note, Im finally going back home after 2 months since my last trip. I just miss home. A place where I can find solace. If only Grandma's still here.

humour of the day..

This came through the mail..

1. There are 3 Male and 1 Female pencils in a box.
The Female pencil got pregnant !!
Which Male pencil is responsible?
THE ONE WITHOUT THE RUBBER.

2. Woman in bed with husband's best friend, phone rings!
'YES'.. OK, BYE'.
She turns to her lover and says,
THAT'S MY HUBBY, SAYS HE'S NOW GOLFING WITH YOU.

3. Three Roosters: normal, retarded and a gay.
Normal : cock-a-doodle-dooo !!!
Retarded : doodle-cock-a-dooo !!!
Gay : any-cock-will dooo !!!

4. Three Guys were introduced to a girl.
Hi,...... I'm Peter, not a saint.
I'm Paul not a POPE.
I'm John not a Baptist...
The girl replied.. Hi.. I'm Mary, not a VIRGIN

5. Girlfriends are appetizers. Tastes good at any time.
Mistresses are Tomyams..Hot and spicy. Eaten frequently.
WIVES are Maggie. Eaten when there's nothing to eat.!!!


6. Income Tax office asked a Prostitute why she puts her occupation
as CHICKEN FARMER.
She replied: I RAISED 5,000 COCKS LAST YEAR.!!


7. Yesterday's News :- A nun jogging at Jogger' Park was raped by 4 guys.
Today's News :- Nearly 100 nuns found jogging at the park.