personal feelings

Wow! I'm still at shock! *shudders*

Totally went beyond my conscience in doing this. Basically, there's this guy, Jack, who I've just get to know a couple of times this year. We got into a chatty mood with his sense of humor. The thing is, I've just began to realize that I had a weakness towards it. Especially with guys. Probably that explains why I have certain feelings of liking at first sight. Sometimes, it does happens to me although I'm currently in a relationship. I don't really see it as cheating. It's just the thought. That relates to a scene from The L Word Season 5. "I never ..." Interesting.

What, you may asked, is this post about perhaps? Why this guy in particular? Well, that's simple. I had him appearing in my dreamS. Note the 's'? Two to be exact. It was so nonsencical sometimes when it comes to dreams. Not just any dream, but the dreams that I dreamt just don't make sense! Or maybe all dreams don't seem to make sense? I have no idea. Anyone?

Somehow, I suddenly had this urge to check him out on Friendster. Just to put an end to my dreams. This is where the search comes in. Typed in his name and voila, a few matches. I scrutinize those details trying to squeeze my brain to actually remember any information about him through out previous conversations. As I scrolled down one by one, I think I have found it!
With a click a way, I found myself in HIS page!

Completely gobsmacked! Apparently, I managed to went through every details that is one click away and somehow shared the craziness with bestie! Her expression; 3 letters. O-M-G. It's no difference than a stalker right? I guess so. But there's no harm done. Just that sometimes looks can be deceiveing. He doesn't look like a guy who has a family and also a newborn baby. Of course I was happy for him but it also put me to an end of having too much imaginations. Yes, I do admit that I have good vibes towards him but it is only temporary. Ever since the first break up, I find myself to easily develop strong feelings of comfy-ness. Adaptable!

Seriously, I have to take control of my feelings before it gets out of hand now and then. Enough of having infatuation towards the opposite sex that I approve of. There's much to life than just a bunch of GUYS. Haha. Of course there's my bestie, friends and family too! =)

Yawns. Finally done.
Goodnight and sweet dreams to you.


p/s: I can't believe that she had me do this! =b