reminiscence.s

While I was flipping through the pages of my usual journal, which I don't write in it anymore, it got me thinking somehow!

Looking back on how I was in the past, as a daughter, a granddaughter, a student, a girlfriend. I really loathe myself on the latter part. Too naive. Always letting others to have their ways over me. Always giving in. I really fail as a girl. Completely!

Well, I wouldn't want to discuss about that further. It hurts badly thinking back of how I am as a person. All so easy. People do get a hold of my weakness and manipulate me! Right. End of topic.

Lately, an episode of a TVB show has me in tears all over. It was a scene where a grandma got knocked over by a van while trying to cross the road to get hold of a cab where her granddaughter was a bit further talking on her cell while hailing effortlessly for a cab. Grandma was just trying to help but in the end, it was a tragic accident. Within split second, it brought me back memories of grandma.

I seldom talked to her about anyone. Heartbreaking. She was my best friend! We're like mother and daughter more. She was my heart and soul. I could just talk to her about everything! No secrets. I really wish she's still here. There's so much going on in my life and I certainly don't want her to miss out. Not a single bit! Half a year more marks two. Ma, I missed you! Can you hear me?

Huggles~

Love you...