How is it possible that part of the people in the universe are able to cheat in a realationship? Isn't that quite tough? As in one has to pretend that they really mean it about their feelings, moreover, commitments? Is it just for the fun or meant to be?
At the moment, it hit me real hard. Dilemma. Quandaries. Afraid to loose either in friendship an relationship.
I'm not entirely how I should put my feelings into words, but I feel so complicated. More to karma perhaps. Its another cycle again. Filrtatious is best to describe. Or maybe even pampering comes along. Im not denying that I love pampering from guy friends although I AM in a relationship. It's like I'm living in two dimensions. Somehow, the lethargic body doesn't want to take part in relationship for the time being. Im so tired!
Just wish there's a simple ending to how things weren't supposed to be! Sigh..
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Saturday, April 26, 2008
all smiles and marvellous
Im back! Finally!! Miss me?? ;)
FHA 2008 was GREAT! It was an eye opening event to me. Yes. I know it's my first, but hey, everything starts with the first impression, right??
Well, I'm not goin to elaborate much and let the pictures do the rest!
Enjoy! =)
FHA 2008 was GREAT! It was an eye opening event to me. Yes. I know it's my first, but hey, everything starts with the first impression, right??
Well, I'm not goin to elaborate much and let the pictures do the rest!
Enjoy! =)
Friday, April 18, 2008
great minds think alike
=)
"The universe is amplifying your charm level now - use it to get what you want"
In fact, quite true! Yes, I admit! I'm a total sucker when it comes to horoscopes/astrology. It acts like a guide to me as in how I will prepare myself for the rest of the day. I find it really interesting though I don't really memorize word by word and bear it in mind. Just something to start my day with. Nice.
At least certain things are done which keeps me satisfied. First, I've got my passport done. FINALLY. I'm heading down south to attend an event, the Food and Hotel Asia (FHA) 2008 with my boy and another so-called couple together. I'm determined this time as I missed the Food and Hotel Malaysia (FHM) event last year. Totally regret for last minute thoughts. Nevermind. I'm anticipated about how this event will go about. Similar to Fashion Week if one is in the Fashion industry. Haha. So many things going through my mind right now! =b
And also my submission of a really clueless article review assignment that I have ever done my entire life has been handed up. It's my first, mind you. For HR subject. With no guidelines or whatsoever, it's so tedious to even try to understand what is the basic requirement. Two sentences-Find an article related to the tourist attractions and analayze. That's it!
Well, of course I managed my way through lots of consultation with lecturers, including the HR lecturer herself, and it is finally done. I had to alter it again as it she does not see through her expectation. Damn! But I did it. No more fuss about it. Worse to come. SOON!
Then, it strucked me that this article I've read this afternoon during class voices out my current feelings towards my relationship. Here goes.
Shopaholic. I admit that I am one but every girls love to shop, right? So, why fuss about it when you see me with shopping bags every other day? It's my money and I'm not even burning a hole in your pocket. I may need reminder here and there now but then, sometimes it's annonying when you start to really irritates me with the expression of 'Oh no, not again!'. Just let things be, alright?
Bitching session. My fault? I don't think so. When I start cursing or swearing of someone, just let me vent. It'll make me feel better definitely (BIG times) providing that you're not complaining I talk to much or even try to solve it. Worst still, if you say that's enough. (Meaning: SHUT UP!) It doesn't work that way. All I ask for is simple. Listen and be good at it. Not much to ask for, right?
At the end of the day, I wish that he understands me more. I try not to compare but sometimes, it just happens! Be fair! That's what I constantly remind myself.
"The universe is amplifying your charm level now - use it to get what you want"
In fact, quite true! Yes, I admit! I'm a total sucker when it comes to horoscopes/astrology. It acts like a guide to me as in how I will prepare myself for the rest of the day. I find it really interesting though I don't really memorize word by word and bear it in mind. Just something to start my day with. Nice.
At least certain things are done which keeps me satisfied. First, I've got my passport done. FINALLY. I'm heading down south to attend an event, the Food and Hotel Asia (FHA) 2008 with my boy and another so-called couple together. I'm determined this time as I missed the Food and Hotel Malaysia (FHM) event last year. Totally regret for last minute thoughts. Nevermind. I'm anticipated about how this event will go about. Similar to Fashion Week if one is in the Fashion industry. Haha. So many things going through my mind right now! =b
And also my submission of a really clueless article review assignment that I have ever done my entire life has been handed up. It's my first, mind you. For HR subject. With no guidelines or whatsoever, it's so tedious to even try to understand what is the basic requirement. Two sentences-Find an article related to the tourist attractions and analayze. That's it!
Well, of course I managed my way through lots of consultation with lecturers, including the HR lecturer herself, and it is finally done. I had to alter it again as it she does not see through her expectation. Damn! But I did it. No more fuss about it. Worse to come. SOON!
Then, it strucked me that this article I've read this afternoon during class voices out my current feelings towards my relationship. Here goes.
Shopaholic. I admit that I am one but every girls love to shop, right? So, why fuss about it when you see me with shopping bags every other day? It's my money and I'm not even burning a hole in your pocket. I may need reminder here and there now but then, sometimes it's annonying when you start to really irritates me with the expression of 'Oh no, not again!'. Just let things be, alright?
Bitching session. My fault? I don't think so. When I start cursing or swearing of someone, just let me vent. It'll make me feel better definitely (BIG times) providing that you're not complaining I talk to much or even try to solve it. Worst still, if you say that's enough. (Meaning: SHUT UP!) It doesn't work that way. All I ask for is simple. Listen and be good at it. Not much to ask for, right?
At the end of the day, I wish that he understands me more. I try not to compare but sometimes, it just happens! Be fair! That's what I constantly remind myself.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
personal feelings
Wow! I'm still at shock! *shudders*
Totally went beyond my conscience in doing this. Basically, there's this guy, Jack, who I've just get to know a couple of times this year. We got into a chatty mood with his sense of humor. The thing is, I've just began to realize that I had a weakness towards it. Especially with guys. Probably that explains why I have certain feelings of liking at first sight. Sometimes, it does happens to me although I'm currently in a relationship. I don't really see it as cheating. It's just the thought. That relates to a scene from The L Word Season 5. "I never ..." Interesting.
What, you may asked, is this post about perhaps? Why this guy in particular? Well, that's simple. I had him appearing in my dreamS. Note the 's'? Two to be exact. It was so nonsencical sometimes when it comes to dreams. Not just any dream, but the dreams that I dreamt just don't make sense! Or maybe all dreams don't seem to make sense? I have no idea. Anyone?
Somehow, I suddenly had this urge to check him out on Friendster. Just to put an end to my dreams. This is where the search comes in. Typed in his name and voila, a few matches. I scrutinize those details trying to squeeze my brain to actually remember any information about him through out previous conversations. As I scrolled down one by one, I think I have found it!
With a click a way, I found myself in HIS page!
Completely gobsmacked! Apparently, I managed to went through every details that is one click away and somehow shared the craziness with bestie! Her expression; 3 letters. O-M-G. It's no difference than a stalker right? I guess so. But there's no harm done. Just that sometimes looks can be deceiveing. He doesn't look like a guy who has a family and also a newborn baby. Of course I was happy for him but it also put me to an end of having too much imaginations. Yes, I do admit that I have good vibes towards him but it is only temporary. Ever since the first break up, I find myself to easily develop strong feelings of comfy-ness. Adaptable!
Seriously, I have to take control of my feelings before it gets out of hand now and then. Enough of having infatuation towards the opposite sex that I approve of. There's much to life than just a bunch of GUYS. Haha. Of course there's my bestie, friends and family too! =)
Yawns. Finally done.
Goodnight and sweet dreams to you.
p/s: I can't believe that she had me do this! =b
Totally went beyond my conscience in doing this. Basically, there's this guy, Jack, who I've just get to know a couple of times this year. We got into a chatty mood with his sense of humor. The thing is, I've just began to realize that I had a weakness towards it. Especially with guys. Probably that explains why I have certain feelings of liking at first sight. Sometimes, it does happens to me although I'm currently in a relationship. I don't really see it as cheating. It's just the thought. That relates to a scene from The L Word Season 5. "I never ..." Interesting.
What, you may asked, is this post about perhaps? Why this guy in particular? Well, that's simple. I had him appearing in my dreamS. Note the 's'? Two to be exact. It was so nonsencical sometimes when it comes to dreams. Not just any dream, but the dreams that I dreamt just don't make sense! Or maybe all dreams don't seem to make sense? I have no idea. Anyone?
Somehow, I suddenly had this urge to check him out on Friendster. Just to put an end to my dreams. This is where the search comes in. Typed in his name and voila, a few matches. I scrutinize those details trying to squeeze my brain to actually remember any information about him through out previous conversations. As I scrolled down one by one, I think I have found it!
With a click a way, I found myself in HIS page!
Completely gobsmacked! Apparently, I managed to went through every details that is one click away and somehow shared the craziness with bestie! Her expression; 3 letters. O-M-G. It's no difference than a stalker right? I guess so. But there's no harm done. Just that sometimes looks can be deceiveing. He doesn't look like a guy who has a family and also a newborn baby. Of course I was happy for him but it also put me to an end of having too much imaginations. Yes, I do admit that I have good vibes towards him but it is only temporary. Ever since the first break up, I find myself to easily develop strong feelings of comfy-ness. Adaptable!
Seriously, I have to take control of my feelings before it gets out of hand now and then. Enough of having infatuation towards the opposite sex that I approve of. There's much to life than just a bunch of GUYS. Haha. Of course there's my bestie, friends and family too! =)
Yawns. Finally done.
Goodnight and sweet dreams to you.
p/s: I can't believe that she had me do this! =b
Sunday, April 13, 2008
3 at a go in 2weeks?
It's my 2nd week now. Having to take 6 subjects for my final semester IS indeed hectic and constraining at the same time. It wasn't how I expected it to be. With the lousiest timetable I've ever had, everything seems to be wrong! There's certain changes in the timetable which is in such a mess. Basically, the particular subject clashes with other subjects, in which the time and venue that has to be change altogether. Sigh. Enough said.
And then, three assignments just for this week! One of the assignments due date is next week and another the week after. Gosh. Plus, I have a society to run. Chaotic!
BUT I was very proud of myself that I managed to FINALLY finish this book in a day with all those work, in which that I had borrowed from Gracie which is one of my favourite author, Sophie Kinsella.
It's actually weird, you know. We somehow had this mutual connection. As in we're connected in certain ways that we're either thinking the same or doing the same thing without the both of us realizing it. Creepy.
You may say that it's coincidence but we don't think that it is. If it happened once or twice, maybe. But if it's an occurence, probably not. We even told this to a mutual friend of ours and she said the same thing too...creepy! Haha.
She had the whole collection of Shopaholic except for Sisters while I on the other hand had the other version of Ms Kinsella collection which is
not part of Shopaholic. My first book was this. Can You Keep A Secret?. It took me to another whole level that I've never had read anything so intriguing before. I even got myself the Undomestic Goddess not long after much 
consideration. It was fun. Totally worth every Ringgit spent on those books alone.
Even better, Ms Kinsella had just published another book, to be added to my collection VERY SOON. Pricey. Probably later. Remember Me?
Enjoy! =)
And then, three assignments just for this week! One of the assignments due date is next week and another the week after. Gosh. Plus, I have a society to run. Chaotic!
BUT I was very proud of myself that I managed to FINALLY finish this book in a day with all those work, in which that I had borrowed from Gracie which is one of my favourite author, Sophie Kinsella.
It's actually weird, you know. We somehow had this mutual connection. As in we're connected in certain ways that we're either thinking the same or doing the same thing without the both of us realizing it. Creepy.
You may say that it's coincidence but we don't think that it is. If it happened once or twice, maybe. But if it's an occurence, probably not. We even told this to a mutual friend of ours and she said the same thing too...creepy! Haha.
She had the whole collection of Shopaholic except for Sisters while I on the other hand had the other version of Ms Kinsella collection which is
not part of Shopaholic. My first book was this. Can You Keep A Secret?. It took me to another whole level that I've never had read anything so intriguing before. I even got myself the Undomestic Goddess not long after much consideration. It was fun. Totally worth every Ringgit spent on those books alone.Even better, Ms Kinsella had just published another book, to be added to my collection VERY SOON. Pricey. Probably later. Remember Me?
Enjoy! =)
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