c.r.u.s.h

1st, 2nd 3rd week has come and go in a blink of an eye. Without realizing, its already the 4th week coming. At this point, it's been my 2nd outlet starting from week 3 onwards. I was told that I'm attached for a week at this place called Clarke Quay (CQ). Yesterday, I dreaded to be at CQ for another week but somehow, today, my perception seems to differ. Maybe because Zix mentioned about closing time earlier or perhaps the compliment from the store manager? Hmm.. *wonders*

Anyhow, all I did was to do my job and that's all (Miranda Priesly of Devil Wears Prada).

Credit goes to Gracie as her word of advise was constantly on my mind all the time. Repeating and repeating and repeating! =) Thanks so much hun! You're my pillar of strength (sounding lesbo here now!) Lol.

Psst~From the 1st moment I stepped down at CQ, attraction took place between me and him. I was a bit cool-headed at the very beginning for the past week. Can't be bothered (Aunty Pat) and also for being insolent at the same time. Eventually, today itself, we managed to have a 'proper' conversation rather than the usual with just merely him delegating me with tasks. BUT Im always contanstly reminding myself that it's just a 4months training. Plus, Im leaving CQ soon by this coming Thurs. Sigh. At the same time, I accidentally stumble across his full name in the system which I was wondering who was this in which I saw his call name! =) Im being mean, SO mean that I find myself laughing! YES! I admit that I was a HORRIBLE person but it was just that moment itself. No more than that! Afterall, it's no biggie as my intuition tells me that he's taken. Right?

Maybe it's just a Crush ..?

Do you ever think

When your all alone

All that we can be

Where this can go

Am I crazy

Or falling in love

Is it really just

Another crush?

Do you catch a breath

When I look at you

Are you holding back

Like the way I do

Cause Im tryin'

Tryin'to walk away

But I know this crush

Ain't goin' away~

God is great, but life ain't that good..!

Just Friday, the 5th of Sept 08: life has been pretty tough.

It has make me realize sooner than I thought I could endure more
I was not meant to survive this ordeal
Much easier said than done
I really miss home...thinking about what G said,
"Imagine if you're in UK!"
So true, that even I myself cant believe it!

I couldn't stop myself from falling apart
It just happened
Like I used to say, "I was never the same anymore"
She was tough, but 2 years later .....

More mature perhaps but at the same time fragile too
Always tough on the outside but vulnerable emotionally

Tried to convinced herself that she's okay
But its NOT at all okay
Sometimes, its okay not to be okay
Nothing's perfect, BUT you aim for perfection!

"I know you could do it"
That's what he said but does he really know?

Life's a biatch~!

all my life

the language of love*

I will never find another lover sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover more precious than you
More precious than you
Boy you are close to me you're like my mother
Close to me you're like my father
Close to me you're like my sister
Close to me you're like my brother
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing

And all my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
I said you're all that I'm thinking of.....baby

You're all I'm thinking of, I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug
I really do ...

When you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow.
You turned my life around
and I hope that you feel the same way too

~dedicated 2 mr.k~